As you blacken my name

People get really aggressive when you're trying to convince them that they're doing wrong. Once I got the chance to talk in peace with someone, but that never happened again and will never happen. The thing, which keeps us going is the mission - making our friends, anyone from our world think that we are "the" better. You can disagree, but the person can not see itself like the one, who is looking at it with distance. Everyone has that little part hidden inside, it's a poison. You always want to speak first. Aren't you thinking about doing it better, when  you see someone, who isn't bearing with something well? You're a girl and you are looking at other girls faces. What are you doing? Didn't you just think that your nose is smaller? I know all those things, because I'm like that. Someone called me a sociopath, but I won't explain why now.

I was envy green when I saw you doing better without me, because I couldn't behave like you. That piece of my heart,which was taken and treated without any respectful feelings, was no longer mine. I was left lonely with the missing part and I still can't handle it.