Whatever happened to you?

Despite the fact, that I'm very young, I have made some decisions, which changed my life. I've met those bad people, I've met those, who will always own a little piece of my heart and those, who seemed to be one of the most important in my life, but as soon as a trouble appeared, they were taking the other side and and simply spitted at me with pride and a little cheeky smile. 

To forgive someone is like to run in flames, dance for a while, then go home and put a little plaster on a cut, that you got when you were chopping the tomatoes week ago. Surrealistic vision of letting the folks get closer to everything you hide in that so-called body, head, brain, occiput and maybe soul, is frightening for me. My disadvantage is that I'm such naive. I get hurt and anything I said, is being use against me. I'm convinced, that perhaps writing about that could help me in realizing what should I change in myself and in the way I behave.

The changing is written in humans' nature, depends on many things, but mostly the age. I suppose, there is many levels of the life I have to reach and they can modify every little thing around me. My advice is to shut the fuck up sometimes and think, how annoying you can be to the people who care about you. 

We were sitting in silence, then I said..."Whatever happened to you?". There was emptiness between the whole, which we had. I didn't get the response, so I was confused, then I heard the sound of slamming door and now I know I was wrong. 

Tindersticks - Chocolate